Farfetched Dream

Thinking of you again tonight.
Does it ever stop?
I don't want it to stop,
But all you cause is pain
when I see you in my thoughts.
I know you can never be mine,
But I let my mind wander
Because my heart still desires
To hear your voice,
To feel your touch,
To smell your lingering fragrence,
And mostly, to look into your
Deep and entracing eyes.
You are like a drug
That I can never get enough of.
I always yern for more,
But know I cannot have anymore.
I still hope though,
That one day you'll realize
I am right here, waiting...
Waiting that one day I could be yours,
And you could be mine.
Together, you and me, forever.
We would belong to each other,
But only so much hope can keep me from reality;
You do not belong to me,
For you are too much of a farfetched dream
For me to ever behold.

Important Person

Why is it the things I want,
I can never have?
The yerning feeling
Causes such pain
That it results in tears of want.

What would I do to have you as my own.
My one and true other half.
The one that completes me.
If only You would know
How much you mean to me,
How much I live just to see
Your beautiful face,
To hear your beautiful voice,
Just to be near you.

The day that you leave,
You will take a piece of me with you.
Part of me will be gone forever
Because you have bewiched me entirely.
What do I do to make you realize
How much you mean to me?
I am lost without you.

The only thing I can do is
Hope and pray that one day
You will realize
What you mean to not only me,
but the world.

Bliss

A night alone,
Just you and me.
What does this night hold for us?
A night of passion
And intoxicating love
That fills the heart,
The Mind,
The body in its entirety.

Who knew sitting together,
Cuddled together on the couch,
Would turn into something more?
Slowly, his hand searches for mine.
Eventually, he finds it
Sending electricity all over my body.

Next I know,
His lips are slowly moving on mine,
His breath gently brushes my cheek,
His hands aren't in mine anymore,
They search for more, much more.
This overpowering bliss
Has my mind
My body hungry,
Just as his is.

This bliss of deep love
Has us lost in forever.
We are so lost in this forever
as we sink deeper and deeper
into the couch cushions
That the world could end,
And we wouldn't even notice.

Venting

Okay, so have you ever gotten the feeling you're being pulled in every direction? Yep...I have that feeling. With the constant struggle of trying get school work done, conferences every weekend, my job, trying to actually have a life with friends, and just sleeping, I am out of time. I have been running like crazy to get ahead for college, or to satify others besides myself that I have no time to be a kid. Yes, I have had some fun times through some of it running (i.e. RYLA...taylor haha), but I've reached a point that I feel it isn't worth it to constantly be running. Am I crazy to pack myself down with all of this? What am I thinking? Didn't I leave governors school to make more time for childhood? I have reached the conclusion, that I need to slow down and actually say no to some things; maybe conferences, or less hours at work. All I do know is I can't continue at the rate I am going. If I do...I am crazy. I need a break!

I Miss the Beach

The water crashes against my feet as I stand on the edge of the shore. My eyes pierce down through the crystal blue water. I see in the blue water the most colorful reef with a variety of fish swimming about. I see a sting ray swimming across the sand, with a yellow and blue striped fish swimming directly above it. The wet sand soothes my as I swish it between my toes. All the sand that swished beneath my toes is washed away by the slow moving water going back out to sea. As I stand there, I hear the wind blow the swaying palm trees. The salty air hits my face as I take in the sand between my toes, the beautiful reef beneath the crystal blue water, and the swaying palm trees.

Your Eyes

When you look at me,
It's like a dream.
A dream I never want to let go.
They sparkle like a star in the sky,
My sky.
Their piercing stare sends chills down my spine,
But I can't look away.
They're full of desire and want,
Want of love,
Want of passion,
A want that can hold the glare of anyone,
making it impossible to look away.

One glance from your eyes
Hold me to this earth
And sparks a passion of fear,
Fear of never holding a glance from them again,
Fear of losing the one those deep, percing eyes belong too.
One glance is all I need to know
There is such a thing as Love.

To lose the stare of your eyes
Would be like taking a part of me forever.
Your eyes fill me with desire and longing
That makes me continue to live.
To never look in your eyes again
Would be the end of the world,
My world.
Your eyes are what make my world spin.
Without them I would be lost in this universe.

Your eyes are like a dream.
A dream I can never lose.
A dream I can never have.
A dream that will never belong to me.